This episode is called "Fleeting Thoughts: Death"
24.09.2025
I've been thinking about death more than usual these past few days. I think it started when I was looking at my life insurance. No, this is not an ad.
I am pushing 30, and I believe I am living a good life.
I don't have to struggle to eat.
I don't have to struggle to pay my bills.
I can save up for trips.
I have people who love me.
Sometimes, I get pushed into a rabbit hole of ungratefulness. Na para bang naghahanap 'yong utak ko ng mali, when in fact everything is going okay. I don't know why, but I have a theory, and it's this: Things are going good, and in my head it screams something is wrong because everything is calm. And nah, brain, I clocked you. You're not fooling me.
As a people pleaser, whenever I think about death, I still think about if my loved ones know that I love them. I also think about how'd I let my loved ones know I love them through my actions so when I die, they don't have to guess.
I can only wish that when I die, I hope no one feels regret. Not me, not my loved ones.